6th September, 2006. 10:02 pm. my bloggin roots!!
So, I guess its time for an update on the life and times of frogger, I dunno I should be studying which I will do here shortly but anyways, Life since I have last posted has gone from heartwrenching, to okay back down to dirt to the worst anger and bitterness someone could have, and then slowly but surely I got better, I couldn't have done any of this w/o my support system! My friend and family are absolutely amazing!! When someone is in the time of need your true friends really shine through!! I thank god every day for them! I even made some new friends a long the way to recovery...Dave, Will, Jon F, Jeff, and a few others, I was a bit jealous of some people and didn't give them the benifit of the doubt, If I ever came across bitchy or stand offish, it wasn't ment towards you! Things in the love department have gotten a lot better, I started dating someone in July, I haven't said the ILY's yet, I'm just a bit scared of the whole love thing still, in due time though if things are ment to be, the words will be spoken! School is going well, its gonna be a tough semester but I will pull through!! Anyways I hope all is well who ever still is on LJ! Damnit myspace for being so addicting!!!
luvz n hugz
4th November, 2005. 11:01 pm. I guess I should update huh
Soo, its been a while since I updated, probably 2 weeks, b/c its been 2 weeks since Ray and I broke up, I still feel like I am on a rollercoaster, but I have some really awesome people in my life to get me through, and I thank God every day for them! Ray and I are working on a friendship, last night we went for a drive and I got all my feelings out, its just going to take some time...anybody who wants to know what happened check out my Xanga, I update it a lot more...http://www.xanga.com/butchbogey01
P.S. Stef I was listening to Gary Alan FOR LIKE AN HOUR YESTERDAY...MAAN I'M CRAZY!! LOLOL!
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19th October, 2005. 6:56 pm. Best I ever had
The Song Best I ever had by Gary Allan, and w/the Help of Alan, and the rest of my friends I'm gonna try my hardest to get through this long road ahead of me!! I will admit, Ray was THE BEST I EVER HAD, it hurts really bad right now, I know we can be friends, I just need to Adjust. It REALLY REALLY HURTS...:(
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26th July, 2005. 1:52 pm. whoah i'm updating on LJ!! lolol!!
WELL A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE MY LAST POST, I HAD ONE OF THOSE APIPHANIE THINGS. WHY I WAS SO JELOUS OF TRISH, AND THIS KINDA HELPPED MY ANGER ISSUE OUT. I REALIZED THAT I NEVER FULLY LET ANDY GO, YES I DID BREAK UP W/HIM BUT I NEVER LET HIM GO. AND WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER HE GAVE ME A LOT OF ATTENTION I MEAN HIS MAN FOCUS WAS ON ME, SOMETIMES IT GOT TO BE TO MUCH ATTENTION BUT SOME OF THE TIMES ITS LIKE WOW SOMEONE CARES THIS MUCH ABOUT ME. WHEN I STARTED DATING RAY THERE WAS NO GRACE PERIOD BETWEEN HIM AND ANDY, AND HIS ATTENTION WAS DIFFERENT, HE DOESN'T AS MUCH AS ANDY DID IN PUBLIC AND AROUND OUR FRIENDS. SO THE ATTENTION THAT I WAS LACKING FROM RAY I FOUND IN OTHER GUYS SUCH AS KEVIN AND ALAN. WHICH I KINDA STARTED LIKEING THERE ATTENTION TO MUCH AND GOT ATTACHED TO BOTH OF THEM AND WHEN OTHER GIRLS CAME IN LIKE FOR EXAMPLE ERIN, I DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE ERIN THE TIME OF DAY, I DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW HER, I DIDN'T WANT TO GET TO KNOW HER, I DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER B/C SHE TOOK ALL THE ATTENTION AWAY FROM KEVIN, IN TIME I GOT OVER KEVIN AND FOUND A GREAT PERSON IN ERIN, SHE IS MY FRIEND AND MY SISTER AND I WOULDN'T GIVE HER FRIENDSHIP UP FOR THE WORLD!!
LAST SEMESTER I WAS FEELING KIND OF IGNORED BY RAY, AND ALAN AND I STARTED HANGING OUT A LOT MORE, IT WAS AROUND THE TIME HE BROKE UP WITH BECKY, I SAW SOMETHING IN HIM THAT I HADN'T SEEN BEFORE, LIKE THAT DISNEY SONG FROM BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. AGAIN I BECAME ATTACHED AND EVERY GIRL THAT HE SAW SOME INTEREST IN, I DIDN'T WANT HIM W/BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT SHE WAS TAKING HIS ATTENTION AWAY FROM ME.
BUT THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS THINKING B/C I WAS SO ANGRY, I MEAN W/PAULA'S DEATH AND THERE HAD TO BE SOMETHING MORE B/C I JUST WASN'T HAPPY, W/MYSELF. I JUST STARTED THINKING ABOUT ANDY AND THATS WHEN I REALIZED THAT I HAVE TO LET HIM GO!! I DON'T KNOW WHEN BUT HOPEFULLY I CAN DO IT SOON. I NEED TO LET HIM KNOW THAT THERE WILL BE NO RELATIONSHIP LIKE WE HAD WHEN WE FIRST STARTED GOING OUT AGAIN.
I TALKED TO RAY ABOUT ALL OF THIS TOO, THE PROBLEM W/THAT WAS B/C OF ALL OF THE FIGHTS W/ANDY I DIDN'T WANT TO FIGHT WITH RAY, SO I KEPT WHAT I WAS FEELING INSIDE, WHICH I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYMORE, I WANT TO TELL HIM IF I AM MAD OR SAD OR ANYTHING ELSE! I DO LOVE HIM!!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH KIMMERZ AND ERIN FOR HELPING ME REALIZE THIS PART OF ME!!! I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!!
ALAN LIKE SAID THE OTHER NIGHT I SUPPORT YOUR DECISION W/TRISH!!! YOU ARE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND I LOVE YOU AND YOU DESERVE THE BEST!!
CRACKER I'M GONNA MISS YOU AT BOWLING TONIGHT, BUT YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO!! YOU HAVE AN AMAZING SPIRIT!!!
IN OTHER NEWS, THE HEAT GOT TO MY CAR ON SUNDAY AND WOULDN'T YOU KNOW IT I GO TO DRIVE IT OVER TO RAYS LAST NIGHT THE DARN THING WOULDN'T START!!!! ACK I STILL CAN'T FIND ANYBODY TO WORK FOR ME FOR JOCE'S SHOWER, DAMN THE LUCK I HAVE!! I THINK I SOLD MY SOUL TO FARM & FLEET FOR THE MONTH OF AUGUST!! I ALWAYS HAVE GB RETREAT AND STATE FAIR!!!
TO EVERYBODY THAT HAS EVER BEEN THERE FOR ME I LOVE YOU AND YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!!
WELL ALRIGHTY I'M GONNA GET GOING, GOTTA GO GET MY TEETH BRUSHED AND I THINK I'M GONNA EXCERSISE AGAIN!!
LUVZ N HUGZ TO ALL
P.S. I'm Movin On!
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16th May, 2005. 8:20 pm. GRUMBLE
yeah yeah its been around a month since I updated here I ASK THIS QUESTION WHY MUST GUYS TAKE THEIR FRUSTRATIONS OUT ON THEIR GIRLFRIENDS? *ROLLS EYES* WHAT EVER I'M GONNA DROWN MY SELF IN WORK THIS WEEK!! I HAVE 41 HOURS B/C I'M NICE AND I'M WORKING FOR KYLE NEXT SATURDAY!!
YEY LOOK AT ME I UPDATED ON LJ!! WHOOT WHOOT!!
15th April, 2005. 10:10 am. DO IT DO IT DO IT!!
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Give me a nickname and explain it.:
5. Describe me in 1 word:
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Do you still think that way about me now?
8. What reminds you of me?
9. If you could give me anything what would it be?
10. How well do you know me?
11. When was the last time you saw me?
12. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
13. Are you goin to put this in your livejourna and see what i say about you?
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9th February, 2005. 10:41 pm. YO!
SOO OKAY THE START OF THE NEW YEAR HASN'T GONE AS EXPECTED, YES I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT A LOT MORE BUT REALLY I DON'T FEEL ANY BETTER!! IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE ARE LOOKING DOWN UPON ME FOR "DROPPING OUT" OF SCHOOL!! MAYBE ITS JUST ME, IT JUST FEELS LIKE NOBODY HAS TIME FOR ME ANYMORE EVEN MY F***** BOYFRIEND!! EVERYBODYS GOT SCHOOL AND GIRLFRIENDS/BOYFRIENDS!! I AM FEELING MORE DEPRESSED NOW THAN BEFORE CHRISTMAS AND THAT WAS QUITE A LOW POINT BEFORE CHRISTMAS! I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I OFFER TO LIFE ANYMORE...:( I JUST TO SLEEP AND CRY ALL THE TIME!!! PLEASE LET IT BE THE WEATHER...:**( I DON'T LIKE FEELING LIKE THIS B/C IT HURTS!!
I'M GONNA GO
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4th February, 2005. 9:16 am. stefanie!!
WHERE U BEEN GIRLIE!?!??!!?! HOLLA BACK!!!
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30th January, 2005. 9:51 pm. maan did I screw myself!!
Well I spent a lil to much this weekend, I did something I NEVER EVER DO!! I used my card for almost everything!! What a dumb ass am I?? this is a learning experiance, I need to think sensably before I run off to a concert! OY!! I have a nasty stomach ache for real this time and I can't call in to work tomorrow b/c I really need money!! :( Well this is gonna be a short entry b/c my stomach hurts soo until next time have a great day and an even better tomorrow!!
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